So you are probably wondering why I would register for a 12 hour race right after my surgery. Well, the truth is I registered before I knew I needed the surgery. When the doctor told me I needed surgery, he also told me I would be on my bike in 4 weeks, so although I knew I wouldn’t be in tip top shape, I thought it would be doable. Truth be told had I not registered before the surgery I never would have, but I did and I am glad I did, because it was a blast.
The Mesa Verde race is one of the most fun races I have been to. The course although long (17.23 miles), and technical, has some of the most fun downhill that makes every little bit of pain you go through worth it.
There was a large contingency of people there from Utah, and we totally represented. We also had a great group of Mad Dog Riders there—Brad & Dwight did a duo, Bill did 12 hour solo, Reed did a 12 hour solo, and KC & Chris Co-ed duo. We also had two women’s teams for the 3-4 female teams. I remember a time when I struggled to get people to ride a 12 hour race, and here were 7 women racing—way exciting.
The day started out great. Good temperatures and a slight breeze. For riding it was perfect, for sitting around and waiting your turn it was a little chilly. Since I was the last rider on our team I got to sit around and take pictures. Lucky me I also, got to see Dave Wiens race right by us, too bad I didn’t have my camera ready. I also had a moment of running to the bathroom a couple of times. I thought it was pre-nerve race jitters, turns out it wasn’t.
It wasn’t long before it was my turn to race. I went out on the course, and basically mentally sabotaged myself for almost the entire lap. I started out sick to my stomach and trying to throw up my banana for about the first 4 miles. During this time I kept thinking many depreciating thoughts of “how I sucked” “I am fat” “I am slow” “I can’t even climb hills on my bike anymore” “I am letting my team down”. I tried and tried to get rid of these thoughts, but no matter what I did they stayed. It didn’t help that many, many people rode by me, and the majority of those people said “keep up the good work, you’re doing great”. I must have looked pretty pathetic.
I did have one moment where I almost got rid of these thoughts. I had the thought of “Well at least Wendy is still behind me”. Not 10 minutes later she rode by me—oh the irony—you really have to laugh.
Because of my mental state I rode the rocky technical portion like a sissy girl. What I had easily cleared the day before, I now was bouncing around and struggling to ride. During this time KC passed me, and said “ride safe”. A mile later I had a hard endo, which ending up breaking my right shifter—it was usable, but was sticking straight out which changed my grip.
Sometime after my endo, I made it to the sweet downhill section. It was here that my attitude began to change. During the downhill I really began to enjoy the ride. I was hooping and hollering, and I found that I was passing people, and leaving many guys in the dust. Considering how many people had left me in the dust, this was a good feeling. I loved it when I cleared a section and 3 people were walking their bikes down this section. I needed these little accomplishments to help shake all the negativity I was carrying around.
Eventually I came in right at 2 hours. This may sound long, but when I left I was scared I would take 2 ½ hours. I felt a flood of relief and joy, knowing I made it in. Back at our site Bill’s wife Robin really helped me put things into perspective. I know my health has not been great, and I know I have been off my bike, but it was really hard to accept. I want to be back to my strong, healthy former self. However she helped me see the more realistic side of things which helped.
It turns out my pre-race visits to the bathroom was not nerves. Instead I had bad stomach cramps, and diarrhea which sent me to the bathroom 7 times. I was so cramped up, I spent Jen’s entire lap and part of Tiffany’s in the chair curled up like a ball. Luckily by the time I had to race again, I had nothing left to come out (at least that’s what I was hoping).
My second lap was much, much better than my first. Despite all the stomach issues I left riding good, and hard. I felt so good as I rode, and for this lap I had nothing but positive thoughts. I kept thinking “you rock” “you are going fast” “you just had heart surgery 6 weeks ago and look how you are riding”. Amazing what a difference those thoughts made. I was riding fast enough that the first half of the course I shaved 5 minutes off my previous time. Had my legs not actually fatigued by mile 11 I think I could have shaved almost 10 minutes off. But about the time I finished climbing Moki’s hill my legs decided they were tired. I spun and spun, but there was not a lot of push. Luckily it was not long before the downhill.
This time on the downhill I slowed down a bit. I didn’t want to crash. It was very important I cross in time for Jen to go out one last time. I was tired, and when you’re tired you can crash, so I took it a bit slower, and made it in across the finish line shaving 2 minutes off my previous lap time!
Our team ended up taking 7th out of 15 women’s teams, and the other Mad Dog women’s team took 6th. At one point we were vying for 5th with an all professional women’s team—what an accomplishment.
Although this course really beats you up, I can’t wait to race it again next year, and if I am lucky I will another great bunch of gals to race with.
My team. Check out the sunset in the background.
The other Mad Dog Women's Team - they totally rocked!